Ever heard that saying? When I first did I was disturbed. Does that mean all my fears are truly based on an innate desire for things not to work out? Not likely.
Perhaps its the continuous thought that its not going to work, the “I’m not sure”declaration, that grows and manifests into that which is referred to as ‘faith’. If you follow the infamous ‘Secret’ (which quotes the bible funnily enough). That is exactly what it is. You think about it, brood over it and in turn, the actions which follow lead to the inevitable execution of all the negative scenarios created in your mind.
Tonight I sit, with high expectations,the excitement of a child and the fear of an adult as to what the next few days/weeks hold and how my future may be affected. My mind is clicking, brushing up on my second language, calculating what outfit I will wear, and who I need on speed dial to keep things casual and light when I start to panic.
I haven’t walked in yet, into that which may be and hopefully will be the start of a new chapter in my life. Bittersweet fear grasps me. All I can proudly say is that, what is meant to be will be and the best is yet to come, and that which grasps me is NOT faith that it won’t work out. Just human nature.
Most of the things you worry about NEVER happen.